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The official end.

So FUCK. Academic Awards Ceremony tomorrow. The final time everyone (mostly) will all be together in that good old auditorium at school. I’m having mixed feelings about the whole ordeal.

On one hand, I’m kinda apprehensive about it. It’s the last time…the LAST time…we’re all going to be together. What the hell? Since when did growing up start happening so fast? I’m not ready to say goodbye. The fact that we’re all moving on with our lives hasn’t really hit me yet, and I don’t think it will until tomorrow. I mean, Kawau wasn’t really a goodbye – that was only IB kids and we had Grad Dinner coming up. But then Grad Dinner wasn’t a final goodbye either because we all knew we had the whole summer ahead of us to catch up with people, and of course this Academic ceremony tomorrow still to come. Yet that Academic ceremony is tomorrow. Already. And it really is the last chance to see everyone before we all go off changing and growing up and making new friends. I don’t want to cry (mascara becomes a problem then…hahaha), but if I do I think I’m allowed to. Kristin has been – and will continue to be, hopefully – my family 🙂

And in this sense, I’m actually looking forward to tomorrow incredibly. Although, yes, it will be the ‘final goodbye’, it certainly doesn’t mean we’re never going to see each other again. A good group of us are in Christchurch together for starters, and it should be easy enough to see Auckland people as well as to keep in contact with everyone else what with  facebook and skype making communication so easy. It’ll also be good to see my old teachers tomorrow, as well as Marisa and any other year 13s that I like enough to say hello to 🙂

So overall, tomorrow should be a blast. I’ve never been this excited for an assembly before so it’s kinda weird, but maybe it’s true what they say about high school being the best years of your life. We just fail to realise it sometimes when we’re actually going through it. Also, I get to have a little lunch with you tomorrow before you leave in the evening. This is neeeeeeeeeeded…weeks apart suck bollocks.

This is another bloody good Hoosiers song:

Oh, and feel free to read this you nosey people 🙂


I needed to post something…

…and found this:

Harry Potter married Ginny Weasley. They had three children, James Sirius, Albus Severus, and Lily Luna. He became head of the Auror’s Department under Kingsley Shacklebolt.

Ginny Weasley played quidditch for the Holyhead Harpies. After deciding to raise a family, she retired and became Senior Quidditch correspondent at the Daily Prophet.

Hermione Granger married to Ron Weasely and had two children, Rose and Hugo. Hermione went back to Hogwarts and sat her NEWTS before working for Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures and helping house elves. She then moved to the Department of Magical Law Enforcement where she eradicated pro-pureblood laws.

Ron Weasley went to work with George at Weasleys’ Wizard Wheezes until he became an Auror for the ministry.

George Weasley married Angelina Johnson and turned Weasleys’ Wizard Wheezes into a lucrative business. They had two children, Fred and Roxanne.

Bill and Fleur Weasley have three kids, Victoire, Dominique and Louis. Victoire seems to have a romantic interest in Harry’s godson, Teddy. She was named after the victory at Hogwarts, since her birthday shared its anniversary.

Charlie Weasley stayed single and continued working with his dragons.

Percy Weasley married a woman named Audrey. They had two daughters, Molly and Lucy.

Arthur Weasley went on as Head of the Office for the Detection and Confiscation of Counterfeit Defensive Spells and Protective Objects.

Albus Dumbledore had fallen in love with Grindelwald at one point when he was younger. He felt he had lost track of his morals while with Grindelwald, so after this he led a celibate and scholarly life. Then we all know he died.

Dudley Dursley went on to be married and have children. Harry occasionally went to visit with him, but did not maintain a relationship with the other Dursleys.

Rubeus Hagrid continued to work at Hogwarts and would have young Albus Potter to his hut to tea.

Neville Longbottom married Hannah Abbott. He went on to be the Herbolgy professor for Hogwarts.

Hannah Abbott ran the Leaky Cauldron.

Luna Lovegood married Rolf Scamander much later than Harry, Ron, Hermione and Ginny married. They had twin sons Lorcan and Lysander. She became a famous naturalist.

Firenze was allowed back into the herd.

Dolores Umbridge was arrested, interrogated and imprisoned for crimes against muggleborns.

Rita Skeeter kept writing. When asked about what happened to her, JK Rowling laughed and said she probably wrote a book about Harry after he defeated Voldemort.

Severus Snape ’s portrait was not put in the headmaster’s office at Hogwarts because he resigned before he died. But Harry told everyone of Snape’s innocence.

The Defence Against the Dark Arts job is no longer jinxed. When Voldemort was killed, the jinx lifted and the school can now keep a D.A.D.A teacher for more than a year.

Draco Malfoy married Astoria Greengrass (younger sister of Daphne) and had a son named Scorpius

Cho Chang
married an unnamed muggle.

Mr. and Mrs. Longbottom (Neville’s parents) never got to leave St. Mungo’s. When asked about them, J.K. Rowling said “The damage is done.”

Hogwarts is led by an an entirely new Headmaster (McGonagall was getting a little old).

J.K. Rowling lives wealthy ever after. “I’m dealing with a level of obsession in some of my fans that will not rest until they know the middle names of Harry’s great-great-grandparents,” she said in an interiew. But she also said “I love it. I’m all for that.” ”

Complete coincidence that I found this today. But it’s just so perfect. I truly believe that our school years are the best of our lives, but most of all, these final years. Walking that Graduation Walk today and, despite having only been here two years, having little kids hugging you and wishing me and everyone else good luck as we ‘grow up’ and leave was just so beautiful. Honestly, I think the word ‘community’ has an entirely original and inspirational meaning at Kristin. I actually love that place so much.

And I am pretty upset that my mother couldn’t be bothered to attend my Graduation Walk and prize-giving today. She rants on and on about how much everything costs but then doesn’t bother to see where all their money goes? Support doesn’t just happen financially – support is also nice in the form of bothering to watch your oldest child graduate. But, I could go on and on and complain for days, but here is why I won’t.

I’m lucky. I’m lucky because OK, neither of my parents cared enough to watch today, but the people who really care did. Or at least, that’s how it felt. And none of this is actually about the prizes (although I am unbelievably proud of my Blakie 😀 ) – it’s about having people that understand and care and just make you feel like you belong. Because my parents don’t seem to understand that. They see Kristin as some hole into which their wages get poured each term and, unfortunately for them, they’ll never see the truth of what it’s all about. But whatever – I’ve found the most important thing: friends who are genuinely worth keeping for the rest of my life. Friends who will become family (hehe, Blakie 😛 ), but not only in that sense. Also too, in the sense that they’ll be there to reminisce with and talk to and continue to grow up with. And do you know what? That’s all I need.


^ I believe that’s a generic term for ‘WTF, annoyed, frustrated, FFFFFFFUUUUUUU~, etc.’

Today would be fantastic if I didn’t have exams a week away and was spending today at the beach like last summer, but hello reality. Why is the one subject I need to study for the one I can’t. I am going to be so much happier on the afternoon of November 5th. I don’t care that I’ll still have the majority of my exams left to sit, I’ll have finished maths! (providing I pass…)

Anyway, this is actually just a pointless, rambling post that doesn’t really need to exist, but as I’ve started I might as well finish. Donc, aujourd’hui:

– Woke up feeling great because I only overslept my 7:30am alarm by half an hour (usually setting my alarm for this kind of time during holidays/weekends results in me eventually surfacing at 9:30 or something just as useless…)

– Maths day, yay! And it’s sunny so I can sit outside and do it, great! Anything to make it a bit more bearable. Except, no. I just can’t do it. Well, I can do some of it and I even kinda taught myself some vectors stuff (although it’ll be a miracle if it sticks in my brain). But I just don’t know what it is. I must just have some super-human ability to find distractions in everything. Although, yesterday doing ecosystems wasn’t too bad. Aha, conclusion! It’s just maths. It has to be. No other logical explanation really.

– One good thing that has emerged from me sitting outside trying to study, is a bit of a tan. Yay 😀 Although me being tanned this early on in the summer means that by New Year’s I’m either going to be black as the next Westie you bump in to in Massey, or red and peeling like a little shrimp. Lovely image, I know. But that’s the inconvenient truth of being an Englishwoman in New Zealand.

– Also, I keep getting worried that my calculator is going to blow up. Or frazzle. What effect does the sun have on calculators? Or laptops, or any electrical equipment that may oh-so-innocently be used outside? Just a thought.

– And I’ve sorted out a bit of income for myself over the couple of weeks I have left living here between finishing exams and moving up North. Via a lovely and rather unexpected email conversation with my manager this morning, I’ve got a shift and a half either side of Grad Dinner weekend (means I’m working Mum’s birthday, mwahahahaha!) but stuff it, I need to make my own money if she’s not gonna give me any. So I have to write them a little letter of resignation just to be all official, then that’ll be that. It’s quite sad really, I liked that place.

That’s it I think. Half an hour of study has just been lost forever (actually, when I put it like that it’s a little bit ‘Ooh shit, my future? Exams?! Eeek.’) but as the clouds have decided to come and play, I think I’ll leave you with these and go inside to attempt to re-teach myself vectors.

This is my god forsaken maths class. As you can see, it’s (generally) not me and my class that have the problem, it’s just me and Maths.

And this is just another cute song 😀

How is this real?

‘this’ refers to everything. Life right now. It’s bizarre, surreal, unbelievable, I can’t understand it. Everything is happening so fast and I feel like I’m constantly playing a game of chase – trying to catch up with reality from dithering in my thoughts and the places I’d rather be.

There’s so much I want to say in this post but I can’t. I always find it so hard to express things which are really close to my heart. I know I try, and sometimes maybe I succeed, but I don’t feel like being overly expressive about everything at the moment, so consequently this post will probably be ambiguous as fuck and be pointless to those reading it. But it doesn’t matter, I need to sort out my head.

– P2 today. Reality hit me hard, as I think it did for others too. We’re only human – why should we feel compelled to put on this façade of ‘doing OK’ and ‘coping’? I hate how we feel like sometimes we have to apologise for letting our feelings show. So often is it that it feels like the only thing you want to do is curl up into a ball and cry your goddam eyes out. So do it. You’re understood by more people than you may think.

– This may sound selfish, but all this is making me think of you and me and us. I couldn’t imagine life without you and I don’t want to, but stupid summer fucking plans from my fucking family are making things sound difficult. And I don’t know how I’d survive an Auckland/ChCh relationship. I hate thinking about that possibility, but I can’t ignore that it exists.

– These past few weeks have been full of ‘last’ things, but this week in particular. Last week of school ever. I can’t quite comprehend it all – no more 5-day-week routine, no more rules, less guidance, and inevitably the loss of the company of day-to-day people which we so easily take for granted. It’s the end of so much and, although I’ve only been here for 2 years, it feels like a lifetime – in the good sense that it is here that I’ve met the best people in my life and made the best memories. And it is here that I will never forget (with the help of our amazing Leavers’ Book of course. We honestly are the absolute best year-group in school 🙂 )

That’s kinda all. It seems like so much less when it’s written down, but I guess that shows how heavy things sometimes seem when you just carry them around in your head and don’t let them out.

And this is my current, beautiful music obsession:

I’m so glad you’re here.


I feel it is appropriate, and monumental, for me to announce that I have topped 3,000 views on this blog since March this year. In 7 months, that averages to…428 views per month (which actually isn’t that impressive, but seeing as I don’t force feed this blog to anyone except Blakie, it’s not bad 😀 )

I should probably think of something unique and cool to post to mark this occasion, but as I can’t think of anything as yet, I will post my prelim results so far:

Maths: 32% – Yes, this needs improving, but I have help timetabled into these next 2 weeks in the form of helpful mathematical friends.
Lit: 82% –  Despite being initially a little bit disappointed with this, I have decided I am happy. Although it does depend on the texts on the day of the final…
Psych: 66% – Technically 65.56%, but as 66% was the boundary for a 7, I’m sticking with that.
Music: 84% – I’m glad I can rely on music to save my grades.
French: 62% – But this is only paper 1, because French professeurs are too slack to get papers marked in two days. Haha, yeah, kidding.

So yes, overall I’m thinking this isn’t too bad, especially accounting for the lack of study I actually did thanks to my fantastic procrastination skills. Today was aussi bon because:

  • Leaver’s jerseys

  • Unexpected present from my little friend Steph 😀 She hand-sewed a quilt which is absolutely amazing, and I got a letter and photos. This all made me smile a lot, but not as much as this quote which was sewn under one corner of the quilt – “Life without music would B♭.” I do love this 🙂
  • Lunchtime fun with you and your boys
  • Cuddles from you
  • Talky talk with Boyd (next year – 😀 !!!)
  • Mum finding me mathematical help in the form of friends of friends
  • Having 7 days left of school EVER 😀

I think this song is appropriate in regard to the whole ‘school’ thing:

I love you (:


OK, I’ll admit it! I’ve been tumblring. A lot. Reasons being…

a) I’m supposed to be studying and posting pictures and videos without writing essays is, I tell myself, less time-wasting;

b) It’s quicker and kinda easier. And involves less thinking, kind of;

c) I’ve made it not sync to my facebook, so not so many people see my posts and I feel less guilty about doing it.

So uh, yes. That’s about it. I’m failing at studying for exams but despite this they’ve all seemed to go fine so far, excluding maths (which was expected). Got two psych exams to go tomorrow and Friday which I’ll attempt to study for now, then music on Friday too which will be sweet, and French on Monday. Pssht, stuff doing anything for that 😛

And in brief, good things which have happened/are happening:

– GOT ACCEPTED INTO COLLEGE HOUSE FOR NEXT YEAR! This is very exciting. And what’s more, my parents didn’t die of shock when I told them the cost. I’m just gonna student loan it (seeing as I can now, being a NZPR and all 😀 )

– 6 weeks left of school EVER! SO excited for summer and everything including…

– End of IB partaaaay 😀 This will be epic.

As for bad things:

– Not much, except for failing at studying. But as it seems to be only maths and psych that I reeeeeeally need to study for, I thinks I will be fine 🙂 Just keen for it all to end now.

– And I think I’m gonna quit with the blogging on here, at least after I get prelim results back. A 5ish week break is all, I will be back soon (probably sooner…) 🙂

I’ve found a few more Arcade Fire favourites recently too, so I’ll leave you with this one.

And the point is?

As you can see, I’ve been blogging every day for the past week or so. I have been studying. Well…going to tutorials. But not much goes in. I tend to passively sit there staring in horror/awe/wonder/shock at the board whilst the teacher whizzes over the excessive amounts of information and quotes and formulae and explanations I’m supposed to know for these exams. I can’t help but think why. I’d enjoy learning if I could learn about things I wanted to. I don’t want to do maths. I don’t need to, in the long-run. And studying at home fails because a) I get distracted by my thoughts which results in blogging, and b) I just don’t want to do it. I somewhat admire those people who write themselves study timetables and allocate themselves hours to study and half hour breaks and actually stick to it. I can’t discipline myself like that. I have to do what I want otherwise I’m not happy. And what’s the point of doing anything if it doesn’t make you happy?

OK, I realise that all makes me sound like I don’t care if I fail school. I do though, of course. I’d just much rather fast-forward through the whole studying period and feeling guilty about not studying and get to graduation and then summer. They’re evil people who decided to taunt students with summer freedom whilst they still have that slightly important and monumental wall called EXAMS sitting between them and the light at the end of the tunnel.

Anyway, on a different note (ha, pun….which isn’t funny yet because I haven’t said what I’m going to say…) I liked your little love note you left me. Folded up bit of paper waiting for me tucked beneath my windscreen wiper 🙂 Cute little message 😀 It doesn’t matter that it got a bit soggy in the rain, it made today bearable. I love you baby.

And maybe, perhaps, possibly…I’ve found a new favourite singer. Well, me likey this anyway. And she is cute! I want her hair.

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